LouSy... Rotten .... Awful

Lousy....Wretchly bad; miserable: a lousy JOB! ; I feel LOUSY...

Been a long long time that I have blogged. :) Busy busy and busy... with study..... :( and work!!!! Talking about work, this is the main reason i'm feeling so lousy.

Alot of us would be thinking should i work for money or the boss that you respects and is able to teach and guide u along your career path...

For me, I'm struggling now... :(

Just gotten a new boss. Maybe I so used to work with my ex boss that I can't really get used to him. I'm being irritated by him! The sight of him and the things which comes out of him.. makes me sick. I feeling so lousy that i don't feel like going to work.. I know that it is bad of me. I should give him more time.. BUT if one is willing to learn and putting in effort to understand the business, i will share as much as i can and endure for now.. otherwise, i will be losing my patience...

Manager who don't even ask how I do my sales, where is my sales tools, how to increase sales, what to do if encounter problems... etc etc etc... Is he a sales manager???????????????? All he need is to get us report what is done today so that he will be able to report to his boss. And he hope that we will not "send him to holland"!!!

So moving on or..... i'm feeling damn lousy...

不药而愈

等你等到了冬季
雪飘进了我眼里
我试图去寻找爱情
和我们之间的关系
套上了你的毛衣
心更加冻结成冰
如果我先放弃爱情
我的痛会不会变得不药而愈
看伤心不能痊愈
我始终相信 爱你的勇气
明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行
怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景
看伤心慢慢痊愈
我会好好地安慰我自己
宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定
去了另一个美丽城市 也等着我入境
套上了你的毛衣
心更加冻结成冰
如果我先放弃爱情
我的痛会不会变得不药而愈
看伤心不能痊愈
我始终相信 爱你的勇气
明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行
怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景
看伤心慢慢痊愈
我会好好地安慰我自己
宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定
去了另一个美丽城市 也等着我入境
看伤心不能痊愈
我始终相信 爱你的勇气
明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行
怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景
看伤心慢慢痊愈
我会好好地安慰我自己
宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定
去了另一个美丽城市 也等着我入境

Me, myself and I

With me, myself and I, there are a lot of things for me to catch up for myself.

Resuming my study for my marketing and advertising is pretty tough. Been a long time (4 years) since I had touched a textbook and attending lectures from 7pm to 10pm. :( Assignments are the next killer with tight dateline. I'm going to go through all these for another 1 year..to get my Degree.

Work is getting worse.. been losing my motivation and passion.. It's difficult to work when things are not good at office. Moving on will take great courage.. due to the hugh responsibilities as well as the stress that I'll be getting really frighten me off. But think of it, who will get this kind of opportunity often? Should I grab the opportunity? Ans is YES, OF COS!! But still I'm struggling inside ..that is me! Sometimes, I really hate myself in term of making a decision.

I understand that I can't stop what people want to say or make their own assumption. I can't help but thinking that it was wrong of him to say about how we ended our relationship, especially to a bitch! The feeling is hurting and disappointing. It's over, don't include me in his topic. Our friend have to ask me if the story about us is true... It came to me that it is hard to accept the fact that people are talking about our past relationship. Have I really got over or I just mind those comments? I want to start everything afresh.. with my own new life..

Lastly, I just decided to change my little blackie..will be getting my white-ty.. :) within 4 days!! haha! That is fast. I'm now waiting for the stock to arrive. All thanks to my godsis for asking me and trina for giving me such a great deal..thanks!! :) Though I will be still driving a Hyundai car .. :)



Work this week toward a worthy -- but what might sometimes seem "impossible" -- goal.

Sad..

"Better by far that you should forget and smile / Than that you should remember and be sad"- Christina Rossetti

舍不得

第一次你陪我坐着 我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着 害怕我难过
不追问到底为什么 是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么 一起哭了
我舍不得 可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得 只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得 最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的 错了就错了
不用担心我 我不爱你了
至少你记忆里的我 是微笑的
亲爱的 有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐
我舍不得 可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得 只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得 最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的 错了就错了
不用担心我，我走了

一个人。。

一个人真的會比較快樂嗎？
還是比較多自由。。。




从皮包里抽出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨
晴天 阴天 今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门 没差别
一个人
到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人
连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人
偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人
我重新适应一切不方便
两个人
不一定就成全一个世界
一个人
关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线
过去那些情节
更明显
晴天 阴天 今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门 没差别
Oh~~一个人
到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人 连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人
偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人
我重新适应一切不方便
两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
一个人
关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线
过去那些情节
更明显
更明显

因为你没说

看不见明天的人是我
说不出爱我你就别说
朝着你的方向走
幸福却擦身而过
爱情的背后
是一遍沙漠
阳光刺眼的让我流泪
闭上眼却看见你面孔
如果爱不是理由
我要拿什么理由
来说服自己撑到最后
在我最黑暗脆弱的时刻
我只看见你
在我最孤单无助的时刻
我只相信你
在冷夜中听风怒吼
为什么我一直发抖
因为你没说 let's love like there's no tomorrow
不要用爱抓住我又放手
如果不能全给我
就全都别给我

我恨我愛你

我恨我愛你 ......






面带微笑离开你怀里
我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里
二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你
就放过自己
爱情已经过了甜蜜期
多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系
一点小伤而已
你可以很放心
我不会为了留你
假装可怜兮兮
都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你
oh~我爱你
只是因为你是你
oh~我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的…
.新恋情
没关系…
我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句
我爱你